When Positive Thinking Doesn't Work

I just got some not so good news. My Rheumy's office called about 30 minutes ago and one of my test results came back. I thought it was fast so I was all set to write them down. Well, she said only one came back...the SED rate. Well, ladies (and gents) it looks like my niggle was right something is going on. My SED rate is 50! The highest it has been before was 27. So his office immediately made an appointment for me in a week when all the test results from the Lupus panel will be back. I'm not sure how I feel about this.