Feeling kinda blue
I am still working on this depression that has come over me the last few days. Unfortunately it coicided with the start of this blog.
Today will be another bed day for me. I know my husband won't really understand but I need to do this right now. I am feeling very vulnerable right now. Maybe his going to his best friend's father's wake yesterday brought up some memories of my own grandfather's wake and funeral. They both had Alzheimers and died from complications due to other things.
I never went to my grandfather's bedside to say goodbye after a night class I had and he died the next morning early. So I think I am bringing up all this guilt from it. It may take some time, but I will be okay soon. So even if I don't post daily, I will try to as much as I can.
Thanks for reading.
posted by Wendy at Thursday, June 02, 2005
2 Comments:
Don't beat yourself up too much about not seeing your GF before his death. He didn't need you beside him..because HE KNEW..HE KNEW your love, your devotion as a grandchild..plus at that point GOD was beside him..you didn't need to be..
Feel better..give yourself a hug..
this title.."feeling kinda blue" made me laugh when connected with the "green" reference!..
I picture a depressed kermit..
OK I have young ones and sesame street is on..kermit is green (dalmane reference) but you're feeling blue..yes I know..I need to get out more..
oh well..no offense intended..just made me giggle..as I read on I see things are a bit better...keep it up!
and once again..I was being silly (need to talk to more adults!) and hope I didn't offend!
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