Yet another death in the tortoise family!

You know, I don't know what is going on in my tortoise tanks lately but a second tortoise of mine just died yesterday. Unfortunately it was one of my favorites and the smallest, Peeper. I went to wake her up as I usually do and she was all limp, like Max was the day before. This time I broke down and started crying. They were in two separate tanks so its not a tortie virus going on but it really has shaken me up. I feel like a bad mom now. A really bad mom. We knew there was something wrong with her because her "sister" (they came from the same clutch) thrived and she is as big as the others. Peeper never thrived the same way so in a way we knew eventually she will pass away. I tried very hard for that NOT to happen. I worked with her and fed her by hand, so it hurt more than when Max died when she did.
I know that this is a blog about Chronic Pain, but inner pain sometimes makes the physical pain worse. With my Trigger Point Injections coming tomorrow, this shows me that I can't separate the two right now. I hope that these injections work for me. And I hope they don't hurt too much either! I am trying to get things ready so that I won't have to do too much after my appointment tomorrow like dishes and laundry as well as other errands so I can nurse myself if I have to.
Todd started his new job today so I cannot depend on him to do all the errands that need to be done during the day so I am trying to do the best I can get most if not all of what needs to be done between today and tomorrow morning.
Wish me luck everyone!